What should i do?

Hurm. Its been a long time since i have this thought. But it's not like i can confront it because i got no free time before this. And now i have a lot of free time, i tried to give my mind a mental challenge and think about this stuff but well, it sucks! Anyway, we will get to what was my mind thinking, don't worry.

Alright, as i mentioned earlier, there are things from my past that shows up during my free time. First is my decision to convert from Bachelor of Engineering to Bachelor of Technology, which means i spend more time with computer and softwares. Sometimes i think that i should change from what i'm taking now to medicine. Well, because right now medicine seems a lot easier to me as compared to my program. When i asked those who take medicine, they said medicine is tough. And then i said, is it? Because the thought that medicine is a tough subject has never came across my mind.

The dilemma between medicine, engineering and technology is not the only think that i have. You see, my former self would just do what i want to do, but as who i am right now, i think a lot. Right now, my mind keep saying that i should call my friends to ask them about their well being, but it stops when i think about what i'm going to say, what they're going to say and stuff like that. Damn, I really don't like my self right now. Seriously. I feel like crap. But for whatever reason, I am who I am right now, for better or for worse.

Oh yeah. I got one question that i couldn't answer. Do my desire to take medicine is because of my hunger for knowledge or because of human factor ? I was thinking both, but i'm not so sure about my answer. And i do hope someday i'll come across something that can give me the answer. I have a lot of questions but unfortunately i don't have or don't know any stimulating conversationalist. I need someone like House, Lawrence Fleindhardt, Charles Eppes or Jason Gideon. Well, i do hope i stumble upon people whose attitude is like the character i mentioned.

I guess that's about it. I'm writing a resume and i hope i got a good place for internship this coming September. That's all. Thanks for reading folks.

Finding The Truth

Hi.

It has been a long time since my last post. Well, there are reasons for that. First, i don't have internet connection at home, i mean apart from what i did which was piggybacking someone else's wi-fi. Trust me, the connection sucks. Then new semester started so i'm busy with well, you know, stuff that normal student should do. Apart from that, i found this really cool guy who sell stuff that i love, but i need to wait before i can buy the stuff.

Forget about me, lets focus on what we have on table here. Recently, there has been an outbreak, riot or whatever you want to call it in Egypt. Lots of demos and crimes occurred there. I even heard that one Malaysian student was raped. Putting that aside, I'm not saying that none of this is not true, but i just want to see, how true is the news? Well, there's a few reason i raised this question.

First and the most obvious reason, they said that Hosni Mubarak cut all internet and phone connection. So, how did they manage to send email, facebook updates, calling family members? Say that they are able to do one of the above, how far did they know about what's going on outside when what they did was staying at home on hope? My point is, when telling a stories, there will always be some exaggeration made in order to stress about the situation.

Yes i know, I'm not supposed to condemn the people who tell the stories about what's going on in Egypt. But all i want here is to be able to hear the truth minus the exaggeration part. Exaggerations make the story believeable but cause some mistakes in decision making later on. As for civilians, it is alright to hear the exaggerated version of the story but imagine if the higher-ups make mistakes in deciding thing because of the exaggerated story?

I'm sorry to say, but most people only know some part of the stories, and they will fill the other part of the story with their version, depending on their knowledge, education background, environment and their attitude. Obviously a paranoid person will tell different story as compared to an optimist. What i want to remind to you people is to search for the right story, and after you confirm that it is the truth, then only you tell the others.

p/s: Hopefully everything is going to be alright. And to my friends in Egypt, be strong and do what you gotta do in order to survive. Thanks for reading.